Here lately I have felt like the circus act where the performer tries to keep all of the plates spinning on the sticks. One or two is ok but you keep adding and then you have to madly go back and forth keeping the first ones going as you add more. I feel as if I've come to the point where all of my plates are falling down. All of the "stuff" in my life is falling apart and breaking. My vehicles are barely going and really shouldn't be. My lawn tractor died this spring and our push mower has given all it has to give. Our new Playstation 3 we received as a gift last Christmas stopped working. Both our laptop and our desktop computers are having issues...
All of this is very frustrating to me. Especially when I look at this and decide that we really cannot shell out any money to fix any of this. Tav was out of work for about 6 weeks which used up all of our extra resources and he has now taken a job that requires him to be away and eat and sleep away from the family. But really as a contemplate this really it is "stuff". Yes, it makes my life easier, makes my yard prettier, offers us entertainment. But in the long term what does it offer? Does it show salvation to someone who needs it? Does it enhance relationships? In 50 years from now, will I still be suffering from not having any of these items? Just why is my husband working 10 - 12 hours a day doing hard physical labor for? I've told him it is to feed his family & pay for the house we live in. But in reality that is a small portion of the income he makes that slips through our fingers like sand. We have bought into what society has told us that we need to be happy: stuff, things, activities, vacations, comfort. And quite honestly I'm not happy.
Perhaps, G0d is showing me the sweet life of simplicity that we as Americans have left far behind. I really think I have missed the mark and it is time to reset the course.
6 years ago
3 comments:
Amen sister!
The hard part is keeping that perspective!
I hear you. It is so easy to fall off the contentment wagon! Sounds like you're in a good place of recognizing it, however. And God is in a good place to show His hand!
Hi Sugar, After reading your blogs this month I decided to share one of my devotions with you. It's kinda lengthy, but has a good message. (And pardon the KJ language)
"The cup which my Father hath given me, shall I not drink it?" Jn 18:11
"This was a greater thing to say and do than to calm the seas or raise the dead. ... To do and suffer God's will is still the highest form of faith, the most sublime Christian achievement. To have the bright aspirations of a young life forever blasted; to bear a daily burden never congenial and to see no relief; to be pinched by poverty when you only desire a competency for the good and comfort of loved ones; to be fettered by some incurable physical disability; to be stripped bare of loved ones until you stand alone to meet the shocks of life--to be able to say in such a school of discipline, 'The cup which my Father has given me, shall I not drink it?' --this is faith at its highest and spiritual success at the crowning point. Great faith is exhibited not so much in ability to 'do' as to suffer."
"We cannot do good to others save at a cost to ourselves, and our afflictions are the price we pay for our ability to sympathize. He who would be a helper, must first be a sufferer. The present circumstance, which presses so hard against you (if surrendered to Christ), is the best-shaped tool in the Father's hand to chisel you for eternity. Trust Him, then. Do not push away the instrument lest you lose its work."
just know that you are in God's hands and He will never let you fall. I love you... Mom
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